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It's RISD (haha so punny) again! except this time it's mail from RISD! I was so excited to find this on the mail table. The book is, i have to say, amazing. i feel even more mesmerized to apply there. What appeals to me the most is that they have somehow achieved a balance, an equilibrium between the liberal and fine arts. They integrate liberal arts classes into their "art" curriculum. on top of that, as a student of RISD you are eligible to take classes at Brown. Triple whammy!

"Hi, I'm Summer. I'm a full-time student at RISD and a part-time student at Brown."
Woooowwwww. mom would be so proud!
Last year, they just started this program with Brown - A dual degree of RISD + Brown. Personally, I would probably choose Business/Humanities/Communications + Drawing/Illustration. Basically, this program allows you to graduate with two degrees in 5 years. I need to concentrate on getting my grades out of the well. they are pretty fucking bad. i'm kinda screwed for college. no way i can transfer for this shit. It's hard to put a cap on your dreams. and as bad as my grades are; as bad as they may be scoffed it, i refuse to accept that it's game over between me and colleges. because if so, i might as well drop everything and go to mt. sac...

the thought of college taunts me everyday. i don't know why this isn't enough to motivate me to work harder, study harder... i don't know anything anymore. i feel as if i'm losing myself. i don't even know to what. i think this is a really bad time for me to soul search. i need to utilize this 'soul searching' time to studying! studying!

i have a hefty amount of studying to do. never have finals been a breaking point for me. so i HAVE to study. i guess there's pros and cons to this argument. i don't know how i'll be able to manage the stress, pressure, and anxiety of this year's crucial finals.

I'll try my best to be optimistic. and ...i forgot what i was going to say. positive mentality, there you go. i need to come up with a strict studying routine. i'll save that for tomorrow. it's getting late.

ciao