an area to vent my irrationalities and to keep me from going psycho.

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okay, i'm done. i'm gonna be okay.

today was okay, i guess. it started out fine. zero period. star testing. collins [failed that shit] french [whatever] calc makeup test [bombbbbbbbb (good connotation)] ,art ...so much drama went down while i was making up my calc test, sixth period. eat, cherry on top, mt sac, home. crammed for fbla. packed for fbla. eat again. crammed even more for fbla. ......then shit when down.
plummetted down.
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nonetheless, i went pretty psycho for a couple hours. (hm, maybe 2) i guess it was just an outburst. i didn't really know how to..react. or act, actually. but before i did anything really stupid (except...say shit to make me sound psycho) i stopped myself. well, blogging about it helps me i guess. i just really hate...losing, getting screwed over, idk getting the short (no pun intended) end of the stick. i honestly hate how no one takes me seriously.
i mean... seriously! ... for some reason i just want to blame someone. point the finger. but i can't...i guess i've left myself go in a way. why....................................................... i've had my heart broken (well, thats an exagerration, but i guess its a euphenism for turned down) twice this year.
wow. fuck my life.
...i honestly miss freshman year. ...what's wrong with me?! ok i let myself go. for sure.
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