school's out for summer

yet my mind's still preoccupied.
with school (in general)
with grades
with boys
with SAT
with EEs
with unsettled opportunities
with things i cannot translate into words, just yet
with losing weight
with my summer body (work in progress haha)
with the Lakers (hope they win the champs)
with my summer, and how it's going to pan out

let me just say, that junior year was a bust. there is much that I regret. much that I could have done better on. I'm mostly disappointed with myself and how I've handled things. And now with senior year creeping by and college applications waiting to be filled out. It all makes me more anxious than ever. My first ever encounter with the application process - with RISD - was more than disappointing. it made me realize how small of a fish I am in this big, big ocean of potentially great students. it made me realize how college institutions don't give a shit about certain circumstances and how narrow minded they are. cheers to that. okay, that was a bit childish and narrowminded. i am a hypocrit.

CIAO